I wish I could say that I had a productive day today, but rather it was filled with relaxation and peace of mind. While I should have worked a little harder on a few last minute assignments, my upcoming trip to Bellingham, the season finale of Greek, and my new BlackBerry preoccupied my overall thought process.
As I hung out in a house I once lived fulltime in, I couldn't help but feel like a guest. You know how when distant family members come over or friends visit from far away, you want to make them feel welcomed? You buy them food you know they like or that have a symbolic meaning in your relationship? That's what happened to me. I love frozen blueberries. They're my favorite of all snacks! When I got to this house on Saturday, frozen blueberries waited for me, welcoming me as a guest.
I watched the season finale of Greek, ate some blueberries, thought about my homework (then quickly stopped), and realized that I felt like a guest, because I am one. Aside from the fact that a have a room containing many things I need to get rid of, and then most of my grandmother's estate in the garage, this place is not my home; it hasn't been for many years. Not only that, but this is probably the last time I will be in this house for longer than a family gathering.
When I was setting up my new phone, going through all the authorization, information restoration, and blah blah blah, I thought, "Wow. Look how far I've come." In high school, I had a great paying job and my only expense was gas for my car. I spent money like it was going out of style. Now, I pay for insurance, gas, my phone bill, and most expensive: my education. Not to mention clothes, occasionally food, and anything else that might come my way. Through it all I've become more responsible, more empowered, more eloquent, and more of an adult.
It took frozen blueberries and a new BlackBerry for me to grasp where I am and who I am today.
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